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Thursday, 12 July 2007

the shrugz has returned!

That's right suckahs!! I'm back!!
Just thought it would be nice to get back in touch with some people I haven't heard from in a while and to remember some good memories I posted from this site.
I still have a myspace, if you're interested the addy is www.myspace.com/shrugz79
Hope you all are doing good and hope to hear from you guys!!! :D
**EDIT
New layout for you guys too because my other one looked like big shitty chicken. Hope you likey!! So get off your ass and comment me!! muahahaha :P

Thursday, 23 February 2006

its taking over!!

yup. i have a myspace now. check it out

http://www.myspace.com/shrugz79

Tuesday, 14 February 2006

empathetic thoughts...

after shooting pool with ray at brians, we got to talking about things and of life in general

got to realizing how selfish human needs really are...it is an intrinsic selfishness that is the basic survival of every species. we all need to have certain things for ourselves like food, water and even to the point where we need a mate to keep the human race alive. then later i got to thinking that when we want too much that our wants become needs...and when this happens, then we need too much. the human race is one of needs and wants, aspirations and dreams, hopes and desires. we feed our minds with ideas of what is important in our lives and then build on selfish tendencies.

its a really messed up idea if you think about it long enough...

another thing that i had started to think about is that we are always thinking about what we want in life and what we don't have, that we often don't take time to realize what we have. of course there are things that can be improved, but there is so much that we take for granted everyday.

and finally, i realized that high expectations come with great disappoinments. not that you shouldn't strive for great things and expect the most out of ppl., but you need to be prepared for the downfalls...the slips and stumbles along the way. life will never play out how you want it, and just when you think things are going your way there will be something to try and drag you down again. its how you deal with the problems in life and how well you learn from your mistakes that will determine how deep you fall in your journey...

and to believe this all started after a couple hours of pool...:P

Happy Valentines Day to my sweetheart. Love you and thinking of you always

Saturday, 11 February 2006

return from a long vacation

yes, i know...it's been a long time since i've posted

i guess that xanga has died for me as for many others. the need to post my joys, my frustrations, my worries and regrets have less meaning when speaking to people that aren't a significant part of my life. i'm sure there are people out there that might have the same problems, the same wishes and aspirations...but it just isn't the same anymore. but i still feel that there is more to be learned from others, so i share with you my thoughts...

as my life progresses, things in my past seem to move farther away from me as i'd hope it would. even the things that were once important to me before are no longer part of who i am anymore. people would warn me that as we get older that we'd lose more and more of what we had...and it's become more and more apparent now that i'll probably lose a lot more that is close to me now...

i don't mean to sound regretful and dismayed, but there will be times that i'd wish that i could go back to the things that made me happy once before. basketball on thursdays are bittersweet because it almost takes me back to when i used to play in middle and high school with all the old friends and memories. but, most of my day is just another progression to get to graduation and to move further into my life.

there are still a few things that i hold dear and hope that will never change. the friendships that i've made through my life, the person that i love more than anything in the world, the family that supports me, and the things that i've learned through the past few years. i've been told that my mindset will be what makes or breaks me...that if i do my best and be happy with that, i will go far...that there is more to life than trying to make things perfect...not to expect too much out of others, etc. etc.

in rememberance, i know that i am lucky. lucky to have a family that loves me and supports me, friends who care and will guide me, one to love and be happy with, a job on campus that is less demanding, and so on. for all that has been lost, i have gained ten-fold. for all that i've wanted, i've recieved more of what i have needed. for all that i've regretted, there is so much more to look forward to...

thank you to all of you

Friday, 21 October 2005

it's almost 4 in the morning and i decided to finally update LOL

not much has been happening in my world...same old shit, different day. judy and i are still going out WEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D she rocks my socks with locks on docks ^^

yeah i'm out of it, what you gonna do? huh? huh?! HUH?!?......omg? REALLY?!!? hahaha

i got a new job on campus at the law school library. it's a lot easier than jacks was, and i know most of the people there already from previous classes and stuff. i think i'll probably stay there until i grad from college...we'll see.

ummm...i'm hungry...hungry for a bagel. a bagel. with the creamy creamy cheese, the creamy creamy cheese...TAKE ME TO THE BAGEL SHOP OR FEEL MY SQUIRRELLY WRATH!!! hehehe ^^

later today is a pool tournament and poker tournament...wonder how i'll do in either one of them right now i was getting to the point of running racks consistently a few days ago...but idk what happened to that. finally broke 6 million dollars in play money!! stupid online poker...well, hope everyone is doing good. take care and i'll ttyl.

peace out home slice